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[personal profile] blackwaterchild 2022-01-23 12:26 am (UTC)(link)
[She's not sure Sizhui would remember her at all--they've spoke only briefly, but Miu's bored. The snow is deep and the wind is howling and she Does Not Like It.]

Haven't been buried under the snow yet, have you?
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[personal profile] blackwaterchild 2022-01-23 01:18 am (UTC)(link)
Not for lack of trying on the snow's part. Pretty sure I'm going to hole up in my apartment drinking hot chocolate by myself for the next couple weeks. But being stuck inside is making me a bit stir-crazy.

[She thought she'd be fine, but she's started to get antsy. It's not as cramped as, say, a sacrificial box, but she's still feeling the effects of being locked in somewhere.]

I'm so bored.
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[personal profile] blackwaterchild 2022-01-24 03:23 am (UTC)(link)
[Miu sighs and lays on her bed, staring up at the ceiling as she considers.]

Not unless you feel like braving the snow. Though I'm in an apartment building, so no idea where you're at.

I'm just bored. And I have a bad feeling they're going to talk about that synchronizing crap to help with getting through this, which I'm not particularly looking forward to.

Blech.
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[personal profile] blackwaterchild 2022-01-26 04:02 am (UTC)(link)
I think it might be near-by then, actually.

[She frowns a little at the question--it's a valid one and one she's used to getting when she talks about it. And she supposes he's very correct, because those are both also problems she has, but she knows her case is also a bit unique.]

Maybe. I'm not used to it.

But also, it can be painful for me when I touch people. Not all people, not all the time. But the risk is always there. My abilities are mostly touch-based so it can just be uncomfortable all around.

I'm like a cactus. People don't really want to get snuggly with a cactus, you know?
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[personal profile] blackwaterchild 2022-01-26 04:49 am (UTC)(link)
[It's not like Sizhui can't know. Miu's told enough people and maybe if Sizhui learns about it he can tuck all these thoughts about helping her out of his head.]

When I touch people, I can read their minds and their feelings. And sometimes I can witness their worst, most traumatic memories. It's like it's happening to me--I feel everything they felt, see everything they saw. They'll re-live it too.

Most people don't like to be seen. Everyone has things about them they want hidden away, so when it's exposed they lash out.

So maybe this is one cactus you should give up cultivating.
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[personal profile] blackwaterchild 2022-01-30 03:05 am (UTC)(link)
It's not something I can turn off. When I'd warn people in the past, they'd think I was lying. If I proved it, they'd get violent or at least just upset. It's easier to just avoid people entirely.

[god she walked RIGHT into the cultivator joke, didn't she.]

Trying to be "good" like that is only going to get you killed. Or taken advantage of.

People like you are so exhausting... Why do I keep making friends with people like that...